12th March, Wednesday
at night,
i was watching some videos and i came across this video song in Godtube.
How Great Is Our God.
while listening to that song,
many things went through my mind.
for that moment,
it feels like my past 17 years of life just passed by me.
i broke down and cry.
sometimes i didn't really trust on the Him fully.
i even have doubts too.
after that,
i was reminded of the video xiangyun once let me see.
that video struck me real hard.
God seems to be asking me,
"Did you really obey me?"
i asked myself again,
am i being obedience towards God?
not only God,
but my parents?
do i trust Him fully?
i'm being reminded of many sad things in the past few years.
i was totally depressed and felt so sorrow.
but i really could see how God has transformed my life.

ever since that time,
that date,
that day,
that moment,
i felt that the world left me behind alone.
you had many "thank you"s and "sorry"s for me,
and i had many great memories too.
i began feeling that i had no purpose in life,
but i know that life still goes on.
after attending soul survivor camp 2006,
i believe in Christ.
year 2007,
i accepted Him as my Saviour and King.
i began to found out my dreams,
my goals again.

it leads me back to sec 1,
when i always told myself,
"i wanna be like changda and emilyn! i wanna go NYP's Business Management!"
but this dream of mine was destroyed by myself when i failed my maths in sec 2.
i told myself that i can't even do well in maths,
and i began to hate maths too.
sec 3,
i even failed double maths before.
but God is good,
he sent Dr Ernest Wong to help us find back our dreams and goals.
on the last day of SuperTeens,
i found back my sec 1 dream,
businessman.
i started to aim business management again =)
but yet i was afraid my points won't allow me to qualify a place in the course.

God showed me miracles,
i did pretty well in my o levels.
i myself couldn't believed that i actually could score below 15 points for L1R4!
my aim was to achieved 15,
and maybe at least 18.
and guess what?
i achieved my goal and dream.

13th March, Thursday
started off the day badly.
the moment i left my house,
it rains super heavily.
i began to get pissed off,
the damn rain held me back,
and i got no choice but to dash to the other block and take bus to amk interchange.
i got totally drenched!
mood level totally dropped.

reached taka and saw weijie talking to 2 new promoters.
when the 2 new promoters saw me,
they might be thinking "who's this new guy?"
on the other hand,
i'm also thinking "who's these 2 new guys?"
haha.
talk to weijie and i got better.
surprised to see the Levi's girl,
cause i thought she already not working in taka or maybe quit liao.
hein myat so happy so see her sia!
hein myat came and jokes and fun time came in.
went cine to eat with hein myat and one of the new promoters.
manxing joined us too.

after work,
went supper with hein myat and may mi.
then went to find manxing to go home together.
i was waiting outside wisma where there's a bar there.
the 4 singers sings well.
once gty and me stood there listened to them sings after work.
while waiting,
i enjoyed their songs.
they sang jenny,
2nd song was it's not over.
didn't finish watching them and manxing came =)
saw auntie anna at mrt station.

went gsc find jh and ws.
they both playing there.
waited for them to play finish and i went home.

Philippians 1:21
"For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain."

Romans 6:23
"For the wages of sin is death; but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord."

Ephesians 2:4-5
"But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions - it is by grace you have been saved."

John 14:27
"Peace I leave with you, my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."

Psalms 55:22
"Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and He shall sustain thee. He shall never suffer the righteous to be moved."

John 3:16
"For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life."

this are some verses from the video. ^ ^