today pri 5 camp ended... well this camp although my duty all the same, but it still is quite fun lah...the first day, morning i went out with miss tan to the part for CIP... haha im the instructor in-charge of the statue... at that station, the campers need to sing songs or cheers for me to review the date... haha then the ones doing CIP de instructors rest from 10+ all the way till 3pm!!! haha thats was long... but i went to help out in the adventure tower in belaying since i got nth to do... at night me and seet have to do night duty from 12am to 2am... but in the end, we did the duty all the way till 6am when the campers wakes up and we need to arrange the tents... me and seet that time decided to stay at the field there... so seet bring his sleeping bag then lay it on the ground... then i did not sleep until second night...

second day, in the morning 6.45, me, seet and lyk sign out to go for remedial in school... haha my first lesson is eng, then mr pang saw my eyes red red de... de then look sleepy, so he ask me did i sleep last night and i told him no... then when his lesson over he ask me hand in my eng file to him and he will file for me and ask me go back camp get some rest... then i walk to the park there see if miss tan they all there not... then i stay there help out a while... then went back with the cempaka group... then i went to the basketball court to see see loh... haha in the schedule, my duty will be at 3pm... and that time is 10+am..then since i also nth to do i go help ze suan in the in line skating loh... then later heard from zi keng and xin jie that miss tan looking for me... say i go back sch sign in till so long nv go back help haha...then 3pm that time saw miss tan walking out.. i went to tell her i helping out in the in line skating... first group that come at 3 is tembusu girls... then ze suan ask me help out.. then i help loh, but receive a sms from someone which says "i know that tembusu girls are pretty, but cannot dui bu qi....." haiz... help out also kena suan sia...then later tembusu guys come le... i go skate with them loh... haha then edmund and i skate together... he falls around 5 times... to my surprised i nv fall leh... haha actually want make ze suan fall de... coz she keep saying she havent fall down yet... but then my skating experience not as pro as her... then at night... also plan with seet go near field there sleep... then ze suan also join us... haha she like a 'Sleeping Buddha' ... very funny loh... sleep that time got alot pose and pattern de... 72bian... then also can meditate when sleeping... also cannot hear clearing what she meditating LOL... then 2am me and seet go duty le... leaving her alone there sleeping haha...

third day, again need to sign out for remedial lesson... me and zulaikha only plan to go for miss loo ss as this is her last lesson le.. then during physics we tell mdm ng we going back camp le... then waited outside for seet and pat.. then go back school together loh... reach school hall the campers having their last telematch... then later they show us a slideshow of the photos taken during the camp... ze suan keep saying dont have her photo in the end me and seet spotted one.. haha then dont have seet and mine photo... then during the slide show... got one song played Bad Day by Daniel Powter... one of my favourite song lah... haha then during slide show... seet and i planned what to do during photo taking... haha.. i think last photo is the best sia... after that dismiss le... i go get my bag then leaving le... then suddenly in the canteen, both of us are stopped by one of the thai girls who wanted to take our pic.. haha me and seet was laughing... then seet say go style hair... then act blur walk around the canteen... then we go basin that time another thai girl came and take pic of us... haha... funny sia... after camp me and rui teng went to eat at Mc... then saw one our of pri sch classmate amy... then i eat till have... waaa a girl wearing pri 5 camp instructor shirt suddenly pop out... then she saw me like so shocked like that... LOL maybe she last night sleep like Sleeping Buddha till blur liao cannot blame lah hor... haha...

then just now afternoon reach home damn damn tired sia... dont even have the strength to walk... i sit at my sofa less than five minutes i fall asleep le... then adeline came over my hse take back her chi wkbk which is with me... haha i counted le... these three days, i only had around 2 hours of sleep!!!!! ahhh i need more sleep le... so i going off now... TATA~!

Got back report book today... sad, this is the first time i saw a FAILED word in the report book... before miss loo give out the report slip, she already said that those who fail eng will fail overall... heard that i quite sad, but i hope my percentage will be what i expected, but when get back i saw border line pass... almost cried like what i did in cell the last time... but i only can blame myself for not paying more attention in class, maybe im a slow learner... need more time to learn and absorb bah... well... my common tests in term 2 pull down my CH and CS result...

think i really need to study very very hard to pull back to results... eng is the prob now... tml parade le and my DN still nv come approach me and shaorui for help... maybe he knows all the command le bah... haha, then next sat parade will be going to Bowen Sec to play game... haha i once played with 31st coy water polo before during kayaking star 1... totally trashed by them... next sat dont know will trash by them again not... haha... next week pri 5 camp le... miss loo ask zulaikha and me try to come for lessons the 3 days, she say her lesson is do filing nvm... but others must go... but other lesson also filing -.- haha have been planning with seet to be slack coz our powerful ex cheerleader will be in the camp too.. SHAO WEI!! haha... 12th - 14th June got LDC 2 camp... finally it comes, haha our last leadership camp for year 3s.. National Camp and this year end of year fun camp will be my last camp le.. haiz... heard from sir james that this year fun camp going malaysia to the BB coy which me and yukai's BB penpal are... haha looking forward to see him as we only email each other during the IR badgework... haha nth much to say le.. just hope that i can buck up with my studies and pass my o lvl and get into poly bah...

haha... finally got back exam results le... left geog havent get back... well i totally flunked my amaths... did very badly for it. I failed eng and amaths only... to my surprise, i did pretty well for my chemistry and social studies which i could not believe it. I scored 80 marks for chem! and A1 for SS!! i nv memorize the essay for northern ireland but exam i wrote the essay about it... i thought i would not score high.. but when teacher today read the 3 A1 ppl... i heard my name and i was really really shocked... 3rd in class... same as chem 3rd, but my physics did not so well.. which pulls down my combined sci results.. haiz...

well... guess tomorrow cant take bus to school le... need take cab... coz need bring alot things... and my father wont be driving me to school this week becoz he had went to italy liao... guess he will be back 2 weeks later bah... results so bad but still did not change my mood... coz im already not in good mood le... so its like nth happen lah... but amaths results sadden me alot. Tomorrow CCA photoshoot, haiz.. almost no time polish boots and belts, last min then polish then just finish packing my full u... then NCOC had been postponed le... then no drills on june holiday, due to too many camps for year 3s boys and CSM & me dont have the time to conduct drill for year 2s.. haha they must be feeling shiok lah... tired le after polishing for so long, go sleep le... tata~!

hmm... talking about abortion which i had been hearing this past 2 days... i remember actually i had 3 siblings de.. 1 is the eldest... the other 2 younger than me.. but sad to say lah... my mother went for abortion... can see the regrets in her eyes... actually i was almost aborted too... cannot blame my mother lah... that time she emotionally hurt... then think this think that... but is lucky that one of my mother's friend persuaded her to keep me... dont know persuade how long lah.. my mother that time already decided go for abortion le... but really thanks to her friend... maybe she is the one who saved me... qian ta yi ge ren qing LOL. well... there is actually also a younger sibling other then my elder bro... but we both dont aknowledge him as our younger bro... haha thats another of our family cases... dont wanna talk about it lah

haiz... another sad day for me bah... whenever i sad i think of what adelene had told me before "Stay more optimistic and your life will be full of laughters and happiness." but i cant see that there is anything that can let me stay optimistic... Family probs, financial probs, studies prob etc. u cant expect me to be optimistic when i had such probs right? actually i long ago had decided not to care about all this probs le... but cant lah... its happening to me and my family u know... the only day when i really can be optimistic and have a smile which is not force to or unwillingly is when all these probs are gone... perhaps this is my life bah...

haha later 4.30 have to go yishun stadium as mr cheo is conducting athletics for 7 ppl... 3 founders man and we 4 aq boys... haha cant believe athletics can jump stage till like siao... if your timing is the stage 3 timing.. u pass stage 3 le... woow amazing haha... actually i have 2 electives le... enough to qualify for next year's founders but nvm lah 1 more electives wont die mah heehee... looking forward to National Camp... the day after National Day... so will be away from school 3 days... that camp can let me get my NE badge... haha looking forward for my founders badge and our aq achieving gold next year LOL... hope can make it bah...

11.45pm just reach home... now 1 hour pass le... going sleep soon le... hmm.. today cell talking about pregnancy, abortion, homosexual etc.

haiz... then just now not in quite happy mood.. coz of some stuffs bah... then walk to bus interchange alone... then saw my bros friends tze long and boon kiat... nv saw them but they call my name then i saw them... usually i always look around de.. can spot ppl whom i know easily.. but just now maybe thinking of other things... so didn't notice them bah hahaha... its quite sad lah in the afternoon.. but lucky there is a joker lin chuan to entertain me throughout the day.. then later from hq went back to amk... then chuan and i go walk walk play play loh...
7.45pm we still in amk... haha then take bus reach khartib 8 le.. so we alight the bus go take cab to church office loh... reach there later abit le haha...

i have been going church cell since Good Friday that day le... though im still not a believer lah... haha then after cell got ice-cream... chuan scoop until so song... LOL then at 1st he ask us faster scoop.. we scoop le he take whole ice-cream go liao... haha anyway chuan is a joker lah... can brighten up a person day when someone is down... haha lucky to have him as a friend... ehh... tired le i go orh orh le... nItEz!