just came back from the BBQ... haha 10 ppl came, but 8 stayed overnight... the 8 ppl are ivan, me, yukai, manxing, jinghang, linxiang, weishen, adeline... sabrina and yingshi went home. playing zhong ji mi ma, those kena the number will have to choose truth or dare. ivan post de question is really damn damn sensitive, LOL... today morning 6+, they all left. ivan, weishen and me still at there packing the things. weishen BBQing our breakfast, but end up we didnt eat. so we went to sembawang mac to eat breakfast. reach there, i lie on the chair sleep liao -.- eat finish, we went to blk 140+ to slack... we 3 sleep at the block for quite long. didnt have a proper sleep yet. the weather is really cold ~~~~~ sian i was the only one wearing 3/4. my legs so cold... haha okay feeling tired le... later evening maybe going out again, haha bye, 'good nitez' !

haha my sms all rejected, msg sending failed... i only manage to send out 2 nia actually... manxing and jinghang de sent, the rest all failed since 12am... haha so sorry guys... i shall wish everyone a Merry Christmas here bah... MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!! MAY GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU!!! ENJOY AND HAVE FUN!

its christmas eve now!!! this year is the first year i shall be celebrating christmas bah... not going carolling later at night with the youths, as i didnt go for training ^ ^... tomorrow having BBQ at sembawang park... i hope more 2a2 ppl can go... well, i will be praying for good weather throughtout 25th dec, and safety too... *Christmas without Jesus isn't Christmas* haha sounds familiar... i think 2 days ago in cell, pastor irene east or who said it... so tomorrow, i shall enjoy christmas... it will be good if james is there... coz he can play guitar for us, then can worship too ^ ^ okok gonna sleep now... wish everyone a happy X'mas eve... and wish you guys tomorrow a Merry Christmas * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

back from youth camp... quite fun and relax de camp, haha many activities 1st day we all gather opposite blk 156 wait for bus to come fetch us. we took the bus to St Andrew's Village then we are separated into our groups. we did ice breaker throughtout the afternoon to get to know our group members well. after that 7pm, 1st soul encouter. haha 3 and half hours. pastor irene east talk to us about making decisions. i almost fell asleep. then 10+ ended, we went down for supper. wash up, lights out 2nd day woke up at 7, then went for 5bx followed by supper. around 9, we went for 2nd soul encounter and pastor irene east continue with the topics. it ends around 12 then we have our next activity. the activity is to go to toa pa yoh ntuc to purchase the ingredients we need for our lunch. and we are going to cook our own lunch. the budget we can spent is $15. we planned to cook a meat dish of minced meat and tou fu. vege dish shall be brocollis and soup is seafood de. after purchasing the ingredients we came back to campsite to cook. kenneth fryed the meat and its delicious!!! me and ada was cooking the rice. then soup was also cooked by me. there will be tasters coming around tasting our food then give us points. after that OTOT, we played SOCCER!!! at night, we went for our last 3rd soul encouter. then after that night games!!! nicky planned this whole game. there are 6 stations, but we manage to finish 3 stations due to the time. all the members must be blindfolded except the leader. our first station is just climbing along the railing. second station 1 person will be blindfolded, the rest station below the platform. all we need to do is catch the person when he or she falls back. when my turn, i fall back and they catch me, but when i get up, my eyes bang onto ezra's head >.<> 3rd day we woke up, then went back to yishun cinema for church service. we had our breakfast there. and it was similar to the breakfast we had during last year de BYG camp before church service!! LOL. during service, 14 of us sitting in a row. alvin left half way coz he got singing. then left 13 of us. guess what?? whole row SLEEPING!!!! LOL. but i woke up after a while. went back to campsite to have our lunch, then next is war games! we will be using poster colours and water guns to shoot but the game ended early due to heavy rain. i was sitting at the basketball court open space throughtout the game. i was drenched so are the rest ^ ^ even war games ends, we still player SOCCER!!! rain stopped slowly when he played. before 5, we went to wash up. then 5, we have to assemble in the hall for the formal night briefing. the girls will draw lots to see which guy will be their dates. haha after that, we went to changed. around 6+ we brought the gifts we gonna give to our dates and the invitation card to their room to invite them. haha when some of the guys escort the girls, leslie commanding us to salute haha. kenneth dress like he is the groom. haha wearing blazer, red tie. he looks handsome. after formal dinner, we need escorts the girls back to the hall for jazz concerts. leslie they all dancing!! then we sabo daryl, we pushed him out. he was trying to look sexy but taking out his tie slowly. haha fun! at around 9,we went back to change to casual clothings and we came back to the hall for MEGA WORSHIP!!! haha its quite similiar to last year's byg mega worship, but the difference is now i high like siao!! oh yah our camp theme song is Might To Save by Hillsongs. it's a nice song. haha after mega worship, i no voice liao. then after this is praying, and i saw with my owns eyes some things. haiz... well if anyone who played dota and worst is addicted to it. a advise to you, stop playing... i believe those guys present in the hall and saw alex will stop dota le. i wont say what happened to him here lah, coz the process is long. after this, we went sleep... me and joel cant sleep. then the rest of the boys were downstairs chatting. my room only 3 ppl inside sleeping, joel's room inside 1 ppl sleeping. so i went to joel room to chat with him. i almost fell asleep. we went down to eat supper at around 2+ haha we feeling hungry. then finally i went back to sleep at 3+ 4th day last day of camp which is today. we had prize presentation. guess what, my group won the cooking!!! haha must be the meat kenneth cooked de then help us. coz its really delicious!! then best formal wear is also kenneth! haha he really dress very nice... sir justin is his cousin, then kenneth say he is his cousin, so ask me call him sir also -.- but he call him sir's ka chen haha.

this picture is taken on bus on the way back to st andrew after church service.

the toy i holding is joel's and he is going to give his date that toy.

leslie, ben loo and ezra also got buy haha

during preparation for formal dinner, haha wei qi always has a funny face.

he sleep with his eyes open for 1 hour!!!!

taken in the toilet, the rose is joel giving his date de, but he inside toilet cooling himself.

so he ask me help him hold his rose haha

oh yah, found out during 3rd encounted during prayer that daphne, one of the youth, de grandma hse is same blk as mine and above nia haha. he saw me be4 and i think i saw her be4 but i didnt realize it. we are separated into small groups for praying for each other. they prayed for me and i sat in the middle, immediately after i close my eyes and they started praying, i felt scared and feeling of fear came to me. then sir suddenly asked me do i have fears. he prayer and i think he either saw the word fear or he felt fear too. and i told him about my fears loh. then daphne said that she saw a image of me putting both my hands together, and i have fear in me. then michelle tell me she saw a vision of my image reflecting in a mirror, and she said that god made me not for a mistake. alvin said to me be strong to myself, thats what he heard i think. well all this are my weak points bah, im always fearing, not confident, always think why am i like this why am i like that, haha

i havent touch a single homework yet =( guess im gonna start soon bah, but this coming sat, im going to have FAA project, haiz... haha feeling tired ZzZz i go rest le

today got athelete badgework. morning 8.30 at yishun stadium. around 8 months ago, the aq boys and the sec 4s went for this badgework... but only alex and linchuan passed stage 1. i saw engkiong's chevron and i saw athelete stage 3.. so i ask alvin how he get de, stage 1 also difficult liao... now then i realize engkiong run damn fast haha i ran 400m and long jump... last time i ran 400m, 77 sec... stage 1 requirement is 75 sec, so i fail 2 sec. today i ran 74 sec ^ ^ then long jump, only shaorui,linchuan,jianzhong and me take.... the rest all dare not try long jump, coz stage 1 requirement is so GODLY, 4m 88cm i think all fail except i pass!! haha, i aiming for stage 2 de loh... but then the ground slippery... so i cant manage to jump any further... then overall, only 3 boys pass... although linchuan fail, he already got stage 1 le. he came to aim for stage 2 or 3 only haha the 3 boys who pass are mingzhou,shawnsoh and me... dont see shawnsoh nua nua de hor... he sprinter lai de!! my 400m is detail 2, got shaorui, linchuan, darren, jianzhong, me and a 87th boy jianzhong ran halfway stop... then first 3 is me, chuan and shaorui... the start-off, shaorui first, i second.. then i dont know darren or chuan 3rd... but then after a 100m, chuan begins to pump liao... he ran pass shaorui... then i still maintaining my pace. then left last 100m, chuan said he no more strength pump liao... coz he first 300m pump too much, same as shaorui... then i last 100m chiong... ehh lucky, i manage to pass 1 sec... then chuan 1st, timing 1min 9 sec. shaorui 2nd, timing 1min 11 sec. me 3rd, timing 1 min 14 sec. all 3 of us improve from previous timing ^ ^ after running, linchuan sei 1/2 liao... he sit there whole face pale... then i also same same like last time de athelete, after 400m feel like vomitting so i went to the toilet... i still remember i last time stay at the toilet a while, then i suddenly feel no more weak and dont want vomit liao... today also the same -.- haha, got once during cell, we swap our letters in our name. like for example, Joel Heng name will become Hoel Jeng haha... then we use this nick to introduce ourselves in cell. but for Shawn Soh, swap liao still Shawn Soh -.- haha Sir James de funny. James Wee become Wames Jee... and for mine is Lloysius Ain. sounds weird -.- youth camp coming, at St Andrew's Village ^ ^ borrowed a bigger bag from darren coz my bag too small... bringing 2 shoebags containing 3 shoes, 1 sandals -.- haha 1 for formal night, 1 for spareshoe, 1 for sportsshoe. just now slept then woke up, suddenly muscleache!! waiting for next year's parade, and BB day ^ ^ stepping down soon le =( hope next CSM & DY can do much better jobs than us ^ ^ my predicted CSM : Kang Kee Ching DY : Joel Heng / Hoel Jeng lol

ytd BBSGB... sir eng kiat come to ask me who wants to go out to the box in 3 locations, thomson plaza, amk, toa pa yoh HDB hut... i at first think amk near my hse so choose amk loh... but end up there so sian, chuan and weiqi choose bukit panjang, the place i went during sec 1 and i had alot of fun there... and he also had alot of fun there ytd shaorui so ke lian, he go toa pa yoh with 87 de junior that he dont know de... then junrong and yongming go thomson plaza alvin and his junior go SSDC at yio chu kang, near our amk de ntuc... when i reached there, i went to find the manager but i didnt told her im here to man the box instead i ask for roller cages lol chuan called me and told me what happened there... he said weiqi stand there give out flyers but so long still havent give a single one yet.... so chuan changed the plan, he told weiqi the flyers can only give out to chiobu -.- alvin called me also... he is having free lunch there... then junrong called say there alot ppl donate money... i called shaorui... all he reply is orh -.- i asked him how is the box there he reply: orh talk to him till i pekchek so i hang amk here also no chairs loh... then stand whole day... ard 3+ when i giving flyers chuan call me again chuan: waaa weiqi just now stand at box alone, then i go toilet... i come back only got ppl donate 10cents 20cents, so i tell weiqi stand aside, i stand at the box alone. haha guess what... someone come donate $10... then chuan say i know why lah, its becoz of the face.. haha he broke weiqi's heart LOL ard 7+ chuan sms me chuan: waa, got chiobu just went into cafe. they come out i wan put electric le haha dotz... after that he called me tell me he drank too much water go toilet... come back he saw the chiobu standing in front of the stall in front of their box buying drinks... he immediately ask weiqi pass him the flyers so he can give the chiobu... but sadly, weiqi said the FAA just come collect back all... then chuan say:walau my chance just fly away like this haha... 8.50 le, alvin took mrt from yio chu kang to amk come ntuc find me, then we went to amk mrt to meet shaorui... and chuan is on the way in mrt from bukit panjang we are meeting for supper... i called chuan at ard 9.25, he told me he at khartib liao... then i shocked.. i ask him from bukit panjang to khartib 25 mins arh!?!! haha then later we wait very long... 9.40 we called chuan again... this time he said he at yio chu kang -.- we asked him how come khartib to yio chu kang 15 mins?? obviously he dua us loh... then after that went to the McDonalds at blk 100+ there de...

haha which of the 3 above is me? shaorui? alvin??
^ ^



weixiang with me at amk box... haha slacking at ard 2pm




im slacking at ard 6.30pm...
yeah Have A Heart, Share A Gift... please help!!
this have been running for 18 years le!!!



no chair!!!! so have to sit on floor!!!
slacking at 7.30pm...

morning woke up had a big quarrel with bro...
he morning kee siao quarrel with his gf then throw things bang here bang there...
then end up quarrelling with me and my mum...
but then afterwards everything is fine le...
actually can see my bro has his own tong ku lah...
he suffer beatings from father since young,
but i didnt even suffer any beatings from parents before...
just now quarrel he still say he at NS kena forced by the officers...
come back kena forced by ppl etc etc...
haiz... see him like this i also sad...
he dont have a good childhood...
sec 1 retain, drop sch when he sec 3...
went to hostel when sec 2...
but we cant blame him.... coz me and my mum know what made him ended up like this
later i heard from my mother that my bro morning told her that my father went to HK...
he didnt even bother to tell anyone, but who cares...
my bro find out when someone calls and tell my bro....

btw, this is to reply to jinghang's blog!!!
JINGHANG!! DONT ANYHOW SAY WHAT NEW TARGET!!!!
NO SUCH THING!!!!