had been reading the book daryl gave to me.
it speaks into my heart.

The glory of God is man fully alive -- SAINT IRENAEUS

as we know that God's offer to us is life, eternal life.
when we hear the words eternal life,
most of us tend to interpret that as "a life that waits for us in eternity."
But eternal means "unending, "
not "later."
the Scriptures use the term to mean we can never lose it.
It's a life that can't be taken from us.
the offer is life, and that life starts now.
i used to think eternal life means after die go heaven.
but it's more than that.

we ourselves had no idea that we were born into a world a war,
a great battle involving all the forces of heaven and hell and played out here on earth.
we won't understand life,
unti we come to terms with war as the context of out days.
we tend to misinterpret 90% of what's happening around us and to us.
it becomes very difficult for us to believe that God's intention toward us are life abundant.
it may even be worse when we begin accepting some awful things about God.
car accident - "God's will"?
broken family - desired by God?
questions begin popping out in our minds.
Where is this abundant life that Christ supposedly promised?
Where is God when we need him most?
we start to doubt our place and come to question God's intentions toward us,
and we lose track of the most important things in life.

before he promised us life,
Jesus warned us that a thief would try to steal, kill and destroy.
God intends life for us,
but right now that life is being opposed by a thief who comes to steal and kill and destroy.
yes,
the offer is indeed life,
but we're going to have to fight for it as there's an enenmy in our life with a different agenda.
this is the war that the world is having.
but why don't some of us see it?
if there's glory to our life,
why don't we see that?
why do we struggle so much,
and where is that life God offers?
the reason we don't see clearly because we don't see with the eyes of our heart.
Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. (2 Cor. 4:16 - 18)

i asked myself questions,
is there really eternal life?
i doubt.
yes,
i doubt.
this show my faith is not strong,
it's shaky.
i look through the promises God gave us in the bible.
i wanna believe them,
and build up my faith too.

morning woke up by cool's sms.
met him 12.30pm at bugis.
we went around shop and see see,
cause today only we 2 off,
then after that we going taka find the rest.
went taka around 4,
we only went taka square,
then hein myat need to go work last minute at 6pm.
so he don't want go up,
if not later belle saw him then he need work even earlier.
he went city hall at 5pm to find his bro,
then i stay at taka square and slack at my own counter.
zar chi got tricked by me! HAHAHA.
she went dinner at 5.30pm,
then i kena bullied by mei mei liao.
we kept comparing things,
but i still ended up being bullied =)
haha i never work today,
but i still sold 1 shirt.
pro eh?
commission goes to zar chi,
cause mei mei sell a lot liao!

went up taka lvl 3 find hein myat at 6pm.
gary saw me,
came forward beat me and say,
"how come always never work still can see you!"
haha.
madeline was slacking outside toilet!!!
walau, kid's wear no supervisor de meh?
LOL.
nasri worked at arnold palmer now.
he came over and we talked a while.
he missed men's wear.
i guess i also miss working with them haha.
went back taka square and take my bag,
then went yishun to meet sherman, jon and justin.

dinner with them then went occ for CP.
after CP,
justin sent me home.
on the way,
sherman and justin kept "quarrelling".
i guess that's how they get along lah haha.
aq is drawing nearer and nearer,
i guessed everyone is also nervous and excited about it.
this year is held at the west.
starting and ending point at ITE College West Dover.
haha if AMK better,
can go sch =)
bike point at Ghim Moh road,
one of the HDB flat.
think this year's aq abit disadvantage,
cause we are not really familiar about the west area.
i will still have faith in my aq boys team =)
so do your best guys!

i work, she off.
she work, i off.

27th March 2008, Thursday
first day working at taka sq.
as usual,
whenever promoters first sees me,
they will thought i'm malay and talk to me in english.
until they hears me speaking mandarin,
they will be shocked,
"ehhh? you chinese meh!?!?!"
haha.
taka sq is super boring,
spent whole day watching tom & jerry show and looney tunes there.
lucky got tv to entertain me,
if not i will be even more bored!

went dinner with manxing at lucky plaza.
before going for dinner,
feraud auntie told me a girl came to find me just now.
after dinner,
we went taka children's wear,
which is opposite men's wear only,
to find madeline.
madeline told me she just now went to men's wear find me -.-
so feraud auntie was talking about her.
haha.
went back taka sq and watch cartoon again.

hein myat knocked off 8+,
he and may mi came taka sq slack with me,
after that we all and norman went back together.
hein myat, norman and i went boon keng together for supper.
cause hein myat stays there,
and there's bus to my house there,
and 857 for norman to go back yishun too.
hein myat called shiying come down join us for supper.
we were talking about cca's.
norman says next time he can go join indian dance,
and i can go join malay dance.
hein myat laughed and laughed and laughed.
he laughed and say i never laugh.
"HAHAHAHA... i never laughed! HAHAHAHAHA!"
super funny.
the reason is because everyone says norman looks like indian,
and i look like malay.
LOL.
had great fun with 3 of them.

11+ took bus back.
tomorrow might going out with coolman.
then after that go visit norman and shiying for dinner =)
was learning hosanna solo and intro plucking last night!
it's super hard to learn for someone who got no experience in plucking at all.
my solo and intro part,
there's super big pause in between when i changing chords.
but i improved,
from 1min 30 secs of intro,
i practiced till 40 secs =)
i will continue to practice.
like what hongwei told me,
learning guitar also need to learn plucking,
if not it's not learning guitar liao haha.
thanks hongwei for teaching me so many things about guitar =)

awww...
sad.
veron quitting npcc.
reason is because she not attending the course -.-
nvm veron,
you can follow joo heng's footstep!
come join BB!!!!
haha.
we will welcome you de!
okay lah,
off to sleep!
tata~

hahaha!
girls are really pro in multi tasking.
doing assignments + chatting + thinking of dance steps.
guys!
can you do that?
just doing assignments + chatting,
i can't concentrate liao =)

HOSANNA IN THE HIGHEST!

ytd after church service,
went town with cyrus.
saw daryl and mun lun at mrt station.
they going suntec i think.
thanks daryl for the book!
good birthday present ^ ^
went pacific plaza and then ate lunch at shaw house.
around 3+
we went wisma isetan to find manxing.
we went in and out 4 times then we found him!
went taka after that.
after that met hein myat cause he going cine for his dinner.
cyrus and i went levi's to see jeans.
haha we trying to make hein myat jealous about it.

went ps after that,
cause it's time to visit cyrus' old work place =)
he said his workplace quite boring all this,
and he said he finally understand what we promoters at taka men's wear do everyday HAHA!
went the cathay and played a while.
went home at 10pm.
cyrus went orchard find jamie for supper,
i took train back home.
cyrus still haven't donate for me my BB week!
after that he sms-ed me and ask me,
am i really serious about _______ ?
i asked back myself this question again and again.
am i really serious?
or i'm just joking or maybe saying it for fun at that moment?
even if i'm serious,
i don't even know what to do.
cyrus and i saw something interesting from a magazine back at plaza sing.
it roughly goes like these,
"If you see someone you fancy, stop wasting time to pluck up your courage.
If not it will all go into muteness."
haha i not sure is it like that not,
but i believe it's not exactly the same lah.

i thought i would never be working at taka men's wear anymore,
but doreen just called me telling me that ginny wants me to help out this sat =)
well,
i hope that if this sat got parade,
i will not be playing guitar,
if not need bring guitar to taka again.
AQ is getting nearer,
and i'm also getting excited about it.
i wonder how would this group of boys do.
i just hope that they will put in their best,
and navigator don't blur can liao =)
so all the best boys!

awaiting~

ytd mostly likely was my last day in taka's men's wear.
next week onwards will be taka sq then no more liao.
gonna miss "stalking" with hein myat haha!
reached home around 11+ and i slept around 12.

woke up 4.30am early morning today.
no choice,
cause need to reach opss by 6am for the simulation hike.
took taxi and i reached there 6am sharp.
-.-
i was the first to reach.
the boys set off at 7am,
justin, sherman and me went sch to move the bikes into the van,
and we went for breakfast =)
after our breakfast,
we went to mandai,
they haven't even enter mandai!!!!
that's super slow lah.
waited at next checkpoint for them to arrive so we can sign on their log card.
we 3 had our lunch at the industrial park there =)
anthony began feeling unwell.
so he rest in the van while the rest carry on.
at woodlands,
anthony wanted to join back the team,
so we meet the boys at sembawang mrt and they set off back to opss.
on the way it rains super heavy.
they clever enough to take out poncho haha.

this whole hike was about 48km,
personally i felt that the mandai was the killer part.
it can lower the team's morale.
and the lim chu kang was the confuse part.
the rest were still okay lah.
my personal opinion on the 6 boys,
Wei Qi : someone who can push the team and seems like boys will look up to him.
Sean Wee : experienced AQ boy. good navigator.
Chang Hee : able to push boys and can high himself.
Anthony : not willing to give up until he really cannot make it.
Darrel : motivator, able to push the team.
William : alert to surrounding.

hope that this year,
this team of 4 out of 6 will bring honor back for us =)
62nd GoGoGo!
AQ is only 2 weeks away.
prepare yourselves boys!
sadly,
speech day clashes with aq.
i will be going speech day morning first to collect awards,
after that rush to support my boys!

62nd, GoGoGo!!
i wonder where she goes to o.O

12th March, Wednesday
at night,
i was watching some videos and i came across this video song in Godtube.
How Great Is Our God.
while listening to that song,
many things went through my mind.
for that moment,
it feels like my past 17 years of life just passed by me.
i broke down and cry.
sometimes i didn't really trust on the Him fully.
i even have doubts too.
after that,
i was reminded of the video xiangyun once let me see.
that video struck me real hard.
God seems to be asking me,
"Did you really obey me?"
i asked myself again,
am i being obedience towards God?
not only God,
but my parents?
do i trust Him fully?
i'm being reminded of many sad things in the past few years.
i was totally depressed and felt so sorrow.
but i really could see how God has transformed my life.

ever since that time,
that date,
that day,
that moment,
i felt that the world left me behind alone.
you had many "thank you"s and "sorry"s for me,
and i had many great memories too.
i began feeling that i had no purpose in life,
but i know that life still goes on.
after attending soul survivor camp 2006,
i believe in Christ.
year 2007,
i accepted Him as my Saviour and King.
i began to found out my dreams,
my goals again.

it leads me back to sec 1,
when i always told myself,
"i wanna be like changda and emilyn! i wanna go NYP's Business Management!"
but this dream of mine was destroyed by myself when i failed my maths in sec 2.
i told myself that i can't even do well in maths,
and i began to hate maths too.
sec 3,
i even failed double maths before.
but God is good,
he sent Dr Ernest Wong to help us find back our dreams and goals.
on the last day of SuperTeens,
i found back my sec 1 dream,
businessman.
i started to aim business management again =)
but yet i was afraid my points won't allow me to qualify a place in the course.

God showed me miracles,
i did pretty well in my o levels.
i myself couldn't believed that i actually could score below 15 points for L1R4!
my aim was to achieved 15,
and maybe at least 18.
and guess what?
i achieved my goal and dream.

13th March, Thursday
started off the day badly.
the moment i left my house,
it rains super heavily.
i began to get pissed off,
the damn rain held me back,
and i got no choice but to dash to the other block and take bus to amk interchange.
i got totally drenched!
mood level totally dropped.

reached taka and saw weijie talking to 2 new promoters.
when the 2 new promoters saw me,
they might be thinking "who's this new guy?"
on the other hand,
i'm also thinking "who's these 2 new guys?"
haha.
talk to weijie and i got better.
surprised to see the Levi's girl,
cause i thought she already not working in taka or maybe quit liao.
hein myat so happy so see her sia!
hein myat came and jokes and fun time came in.
went cine to eat with hein myat and one of the new promoters.
manxing joined us too.

after work,
went supper with hein myat and may mi.
then went to find manxing to go home together.
i was waiting outside wisma where there's a bar there.
the 4 singers sings well.
once gty and me stood there listened to them sings after work.
while waiting,
i enjoyed their songs.
they sang jenny,
2nd song was it's not over.
didn't finish watching them and manxing came =)
saw auntie anna at mrt station.

went gsc find jh and ws.
they both playing there.
waited for them to play finish and i went home.

Philippians 1:21
"For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain."

Romans 6:23
"For the wages of sin is death; but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord."

Ephesians 2:4-5
"But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions - it is by grace you have been saved."

John 14:27
"Peace I leave with you, my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."

Psalms 55:22
"Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and He shall sustain thee. He shall never suffer the righteous to be moved."

John 3:16
"For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life."

this are some verses from the video. ^ ^

7th March, Friday
woke up around 11+
packed camp stuffs and left house around 3.
went to buy bread cause i haven't had my breakfast and lunch.
went to bus interchange and i saw zhihao.
so went northbrooks together.
sadly i'm still sick,
having flu.
but i still join my aq team for the hike.
i thought we were behind 87th aq team quite far,
but to my surprised,
we came back to northbrooks first!

8th March, Saturday
headache came back,
noon time 2+ went back bunk with les and we slept for an hour.
when we went back bunk,
jianzhong was already there sleeping soundly -.-
at night,
chenhui came!
forget to ask him about his a lvl results,
but shiying say he should do very well lah haha.
had night obstacle course,
after that wash up and we had prata for supper.
slept early so that next day go enrollment service won't fall asleep.

9th March, Sunday
woke up 6+ and everyone changed to full-u.
jon was the one holding the colors,
jooyong and i were the escorts.
practice few times before service starts.
i'm the timer.
went back to our seat and service starts.
when service was about to end,
we march back to collect back the colors.
after service went back northbrooks and it's bunk inspection and area cleaning time.
camp ended around 3,
and we all went home.
met ws 4+ and went home change and bathe.
jon meeting us 6.40pm at city hall mrt,
les joined us too.
be4 meeting them,
ws and i went robinsons to walk around.
went up 3rd floor and i saw auntie cynthia there!
she didn't see me,
and for your info,
she don't really serve customers unless customers ask her questions haha.
so i was standing at the regular counter,
she came over,
not to serve me,
but to eat sweet.
so i started,
"auntie, eat sweet never give me arh?"
she turned and was surprised.
haha.
had good chat with her,
she is a very funny person lah!
i rmbed valentine's day that day,
cyrus and i went cp's robinsons,
and saw her working there too.
we almost wanted to disturb her go buy rose for her.
haha.

went back mrt meet les and jon and went it fair.
jon bought his pluto com!!!
hahaha.
he must be happy.
les took 857 home to sleep,
cause he very tired.
i'm also very tired!
we 3 went amk for supper.
i treat jon and ws cause got my pay liao.
sadly,
the food wasn't great =(
had a great chat together,
especially when we talked about wwe.
haha.
we all agreed that The Rock should continue being a actor instead or wrestler,
though a lot of us still want to see him in the ring.
jon went back,
and ws came my house.
i slept at 2.

10th March, Monday
went yongjun hse with darren to do our enrollment stuffs.
met ws and jh in the evening and went to play.

11th March, Tuesday
morning a call from taka.
it's doreen.
she told me for this whole month i don't need to work all the sundays.
=(
upon hearing that,
my mood went down.
went bishan j8 with my mum in the evening,
bought my dog new bowl,
his old one already spoil!!
use for 4 years already haha.
bought a lot food for him too.
he so happy to see his food.
went back amk for dinner and we went back home.
ronni (veron) called me around 10.15pm,
she thought i going the supper organized by wenhua.
be4 that wenhua told me is fri,
so i say i can't make it.
they changed and norman tell me,
but i still can't go =)
hope next time i would be able to make it.
gonna have dinner with cool this thurs!
looking forward to work again =)

noob this word became common again haha!
jon kept saying "noob" in camp and when we go out.
so we used this work to "counter" back when ppl shoot us.

6th March, Thurs
met cyrus and wm to go IT Show.
jon went with ben chia first,
and later on we met together.
a lot laptops all over the IT Show.
wm and cyrus were looking for laptops,
and cyrus was also looking for Xbox 360.
jon went there to look for desktop.
our motives were just to go there to see and look,
cause sun after camp,
les, jon, me and maybe a few others will be going back to buy what we want.
ben chia left,
and 4 of us had dinner at mac.
i was full after eating my mcspicy,
can't even finish my fries.
what's worst was that i'm sick.
early morning serious sore throat,
but after eating few fisherman's friend,
sore throat's gone =)
flu and after that =(
went paradiz to play battlefield and cs.
the battlefield was so siong,
jon top frag sia!


this was taken by shawn.
i was at a lost, surprised and touched,
and it causes me to even forget how to smile.
joel told me "don't give fake smile".
i seriously don't know how to smile.

next,
i wanna thanks veronica for the card and present =)
thanks shawn, darren, weishen, ivan, linxiang, weiming for the dinner treat.
thanks sir james for the lunch treat.
thanks weiming, manxing, and yongjun for the huge birthday card!
haha! largest birthday card i ever received!

"If the whole world leave you behind, I will be still there for you"
this sentence might have grammatical errors,
sentence structures error, etc.
but when it's from someone special,
you won't even bother about those errors.
i read the letter and i was happy,
joy with tears.
didn't know that he even received christ earlier than me!
he gave his life to God back 2002.
like what the letter said,
"i know you sure thought i just received christ."
yah,
indeed i thought he just received.
haha.
God is awesome!
compared God to the genie in Aladdin story,
the genie could only grant a few of your wish.
but God could answer all our prayers!
he hears us crying to Him.
he knows what we wants even before we ask Him.
for only by His grace I am redeemed =)

Thank you God for the great news!

4th March, Tuesday
woke up 12pm =)
long time didn't have such long hours of sleep le.
watch animes,
movies,
listen songs.
met shawn 6.30 for dinner.
ate ljs.
at ljs,
i suddenly saw 2 familiar faces.
i was talking to shawn and wondering at the same time.
ehh,
that girl look like amy leh,
ehhh,
that guy look like the ytss 19th bb boy leh,
think his name thi ha.
then i see yt pe shirt then i know le.
didn't say hi cause was talking to shawn (sorry ^ ^)

off to 156 for final camp meeting.
half way through the meeting,
sir james came.
around 8+,
suddenly i'm being "attacked" by sir james.
he kept shooting me a lot of things,
ask why i plan this,
why that.
then say how come this how come that.
then got a scolding.
at that moment,
i was wondering how come suddenly scold me?
i didn't expect it to be a surprised.
I WAS PUNKED!
haha.
i didn't even see les went out.
then the door was opened,
and les came in with a birthday cake with candles lighted.
behind came justin,
e-von jie,
and mr cheo playing the guitar.
and everyone sang a birthday song.
at that moment,
both surprised and touched.
firstly,
i must really thank the mastermind who was behind all these!
LESLIE ONG!
thank you!
secondly,
i also must thank the one who executed the birthday surprise!
SIR JAMES!
next will be the "committee" who planned this!
MR CHEO!
E-VON JIE!
SIR JUSTIN!
and SIR JONATHAN(not sure is he one of them)
thanks a lot guys!
my 2nd birthday cake of my life man!!!

afternoon will be meeting sir james for lunch together before going school.
les told me will be having another surprised.
i was thinking,
tomorrow only got GB advisors,
sherman,
sir james,
and my aq boys.
haha die lah!
no more scolding please ^ ^
thank you God for the day!

This is the day that the Lord has made.
We will rejoice and be glad in it!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FATIN!!!!!(and myself too ^ ^)

28th Feb, Thurs
my official last day in taka.
saw my schedule and i'm only working on 2 of doreen's off days,
this sun,
and 2 days at taka sq =(
worked full shift cause doreen off.
spent my night keeping the offer items with GTY.
haha,
everytime we 2 walking to storeroom,
sure got interesting things de =)
9.30pm when taka music was played,
i told weijie this is the POP's song for me.
haha.
and i'm coming back "re-service" for 5 days in march.
went home together with gty and weijie.

29th Feb, Fri
first friday of the month i went back for aq.
really thanks sherman for helping me every friday.
open team most likely will be withdrawing,
due to 2 ppl studying jc and they don't have much time to come down to train.
3 boys injured their legs,
so they went cycling training with sherman.
for william and weiqi,
they are FIT!!!
so they did running with me.
long time didn't run myself,
got muscleaches!
after aq,
jinghang came op and we went np find weishen.
waited for jh to go home bathe and change,
while me and ws sit under his block and slack.
at np,
i saw a lady.
from her backview,
she seemed to be using a pen and scribbling non-stop on a piece of paper.
so i told jh and ws that lady like siao.
jh laughed and told me she playing nintendo ds -.-

off to amk hub to purchase jumper tickets.
saw the lady whom i claimed siao there too!
haha.
manxing came find us,
and we 4 went pizza hut for dinner.
went back change and bathe and meet chungkit.
jumper was totally different from what taka ppl told me.
all tell me not nice not nice -.-
after movie mx went home and we 4 went lan.
reached home 1.30am and i change out of my clothes and sleep.

1st March, Sat
met junrong 7.30am at np mac,
and joel came around 8.10am.
went to northbrooks for games day.
was super tired.
lunch we went to kim sam leng!!!
ate bak kut teh.
justin drove me to yishun interchange and jh came down find me.
waited for ws for 2 hours!!!!
went back home and we watched no way out.
jh wanted to do homework,
but he ended up sleeping at my sofa for nearly 3 hours!
i still remember last year's cny,
he midnight came also sleep at my same sofa.
after no way out was gsc =)
fun night and we all went home after that.

2nd March, Sun
so fast and i'm back for my "re-service" liao =)
met les morning for breakfast.
actually don't plan to eat de,
cause i not much money,
but ended up i still ate,
cause super hungry.
after church service,
i also don't plan to eat lunch de,
but i ended up eating lunch.
cause if i don't,
i will have to wait till 4.30pm for dinner!!!

reached work,
finally saw hein myat!!
long time no see him le.
once saw him,
he came forward,
"AH LOOOY! LONG TIME NO SEE EH." (hi-5)
and our taka's BATISTA came!
he is known as the amk gty soloman 5000 -.-
i thought i will never see his batista move again,
but guess what?
8.30pm,
he sold 4 regular at one shot,
he did the batista move!!!
and his shirt fall off his counter!
didn't manage to take the full video,
cause rose walked pass =)

this coming whole will not have "re-service".
tuesday have finally camp meeting,
wednesday short aq training in the afternoon,
night camp prayer meeting i guess.
thurs both cut and dye my hair at home to prepare for camp =)
fri, sat and sun CCTC!!!!!
Combined Company Training Camp.
this year is bad.
BB only got 3 recruits =(
if this goes on,
our coy might fall.
guys!
pray for us 62nd coy at opss!
that God will stir up the hearts of the sec 1s every year!
and more will come to join BB.
compared to npcc,
they have 30!
so we got to work hard.

GoForIt!!