this whole week dont know how to describe my real feelings.
sad? depressed? stress? happy? angry? upset?
i really dont know.
i dont know what to do now,
there's no one i could really turn to =(
but who would cares.
God, heal me, save me out of those miseries.

just now waiting for bus in interchange with joel,
suddenly received a call which totally saddened me.
it's a call from my mum,
she asked where am i,
and told me things were happening at home ask me faster come back.
again!
haiz...
ivan, not only u are facing family matters.
i'm also, but i still help u coz i treat u as my good friend =)
yours can be avoided,
still small case, so hope u would change your thoughts.
then nothing bad will happen le.
weishen, u also...
dont always go against your parents lah,
they are concerned for u mah.
dont say u will not treat u children like that next time,
coz u will!
these are the ways our parents shows care and love for us,
although its always expressed in different ways,
but afterall, the motive are still the same.

on the way back,
i was so scared thinking what will happen if i reached home?
what will i hear and see??
after alighting bus,
i rush back.
i was so scared when i opened my door and stepped into the house.
haiz....
now everything seems to be TEMPORARY under control.
when can all these ends??
i dont know how long more can i hide them with my smiles.
also saddened by some stuffs,
but i dont know why i'm saddened by all those stuffs when i'm not supposed to.
it seems like i wanted to forget,
but its a memory planted in me already.
the only way which makes me forget everything is ............

GoForIt!!