| aq is just one week away, will be having simulation hike this coming sat. fri will be a busy day for me, coz after sch will be teaching faa drills, which they supposed to know already, but they dont. then after that will stay back for parent meeting till 8m so after parent meeting will rush down to church office will shaorui in our sch u. this fri last session alpha, it will end at 9.30. so i will rush home to bathe, change and get my hiking stuffs, and meet darren 10pm at yishun interchange. there will be compulsory lights-out for us at 10.30. went around yishun area to familiarize with the aq route, we predict the route, but it wont be 100% same, but it still will help lah. 2006 JM Fraser award, we achieved silver =( i aim for gold, but short of 2 points only!!! ahhh!! if only last year aq we get gold, our JM Fraser sure gold de loh! but this year, i will work hard for aq, coz it's my very last event i participate for 62nd as a boy le. next year onwards i will be serving BB as a primer le. planned to be officer like what i told sir justin during the soccer game, i told him i want to wear the same head dress like him with 2 tails at the back, but requirement is christian. haha i plan to go for church service next year le, but not sure leh. haha. anyway, feeling sick, tired and moody these few days, partly due to lack of sleep, have been "fainting" in class recently haha. can say this term my result wasn't good at all, amaths is always the same, fail. i was so sad when i saw my chi marks for ca1 fail =( first time in my life i fail chi. as for the 2 combined sub, its always one is better, the other is bad, then end up pull down my marks, esp for my combined sci! i just pass my phy test only, which will pull down my combined sci mark. bio, i fail my 2nd test, which also pulls down my first test de marks. haiz... just to post this question to u, what is the most important thing to u in life? i may have asked u before is that person really that important to u, but now i wanna ask u what is the most important thing to u in life? are u willing to surrender what u have to God? when ur friend is in need, and that person is in need too? who will u choose to help. well, without even u telling me the answer, i already know whats ur answer le. but i just want u to know that i will always be there for u when u need me, and i wont give a damn for whatever u do anymore. maybe what u do is acceptable, maybe is just my thoughts that is wrong bah, but thats me, and thats u too. nth can change ur actions and my thoughts, everything u do, u think of that person first, and every action u do, my thoughts will go opposite of ur actions. sick and tired of it le, i promise u, i wont interrupt ur life anymore, i will just keep my mouth shut and not say anything to u anymore. but if u approach me for help, i wont reject u, i will definitely help u. but sooner or later, that day will come, when u dont need me anymore. we wont be like the past anymore. no matter what i do, i'm always not doing the right thing, and ppl kept saying. and this leads to me blaming myself for every single thing i had done to everyone. i blame myself for doing this to u, i blame myself for doing this to him, i blame myself for doing this to her, i blame myself for doing this to them, i blame myself for doing this to you all, i blame myself for blaming myself, but dont worry, i not "emo", haha i will think positively, and try to be optimistic. "Stay more optimistic and ur lifewill be full of laughters and happiness." XD |