| finally feel abit stress-free le. had been chionging my bio test since last week... hope when results come out wont disappoint me bah... tuesday some things happened, which caused me lack of sleep. i only managed to sleep peacefully around 4am, but i woke up 5.45am it's like 1h 45 mins only loh... i was feeling really tired wed in sch. i fell asleep alot times during chi lesson. after lesson ends, ms low ask me how come i keep on sleeping like so tired. after recess, headache starts. 2 periods of chem i almost sleep in the chem lab. after that another 2 periods of bio, i seriously fell asleep! mr chua ask me wake up somemore =( after sch aq training, wasnt feeling well and moody, but i still went for training. after 4km of running, my headache is gone!! ytd bio test... it was quite easy, maybe because i got study lah... coz bio test is never easy to me before as i always last min study. today sch got total defence and CNY celebration... i slept throughout the total defence talk. after sch still got meeting until 2pm... for ldc camp, im in charge of 3 major tekaning session. MUAHAHAHAHA!!!! on the first day of camp, which is the last day of school, the first 3 activities is under me, so sec2 bb boys, DONT BE LATE!!! or u will know what are the consequences ^ ^ anyway registration starts on 5.30 that day, just nice OP Bazzar end le bah i guess. by 6 the parade sq shld be cleared so can roll call le... earlier this afternoon when i was in bus going for alpha, there was 2 teenagers around age 18 or 19 de sitting on my right side beside me... then their another friend was sitting in digonally left. suddenly, a man of age around 30+ 40 de with tattoos on both his arms came sit on my left side. when the bus reached khartib mrt, the 3 friends were alighting. then this man suddenly grab the boy in front of him and ask this in chi "Why u look at me? WHY?" the boy was so innocent and he say i where got look at u. the man then suddenly ask him give him $2 -.- his 2 other friends immediately grab his friend away and they alighted the bus. the man turned and look at me, my reaction is.................... ACT BLUR AND WALK TO THE FRONT PART OF THE BUS!!! lol, some of u may say i hum or what. but this is my way to prevent trouble. i was feeling quite angry after that, not because of that incident. well, im sorry for being so sarcastic to u. but i still angry about your irresponsible actions. i admit that u have change to someone who i happy for, but on the other hand, u also change to someone with irresponsible attitude which i dislike. maybe i should not judge u, coz me myself isnt perfect either. maybe thats who u are after u changed, i cant blame u. its not your fault, i can only blame myself for putting all my trust in u and thinking that u are not a passer-by in my life. but some actions had proven that u are beginning to become a passer-by and soon, u will just become a stranger in my life. maybe this is what i get for doing the same thing towards someone, and god decided to let it happen to me to let me know how it feels bah. really sorry that i treat u this way, i know action speaks louder than word and sorry cant do anything. this whole week, i was feeling very complicated. something keeps bothering me, it all started near the end of last month. but it became more complicated this week, and i dont know what am i thinking and how i feel. i hope that god can really give me an answer. today alpha topic is about prayer, and i was under daryl's group. sir james joined us and ask the group if we have prayed before and how often. im the only non-christian there. the rest of them prayed everyday, but i only prayed when there is a need for me to. next question sir james ask is, have god answered your prayers? all of them have, and god didnt answer only one of their prayers, but alot. and when sir james asked me, my answer is no. sir james then ask me how, my answer is wait for him to answer it loh ^ ^ hmmm, hope that god can answer my prayer, let me decide and end the complicated feelings i have now. sir james say pray with faith, and god will answer. just now after alpha went for movie with aloysius kwok, joel, leslie, daryl and chuan. watched ghost riders. it is a damn chun movie!!! haha watch it! |