well, i actually have a role model of my life... haha guess who he is?? Lee Kuan Yew? David Marshall? David Beckham? haha no lah... he is actually Lee Chang Da... for u guys info... his pic is at the foyer the model student there!! i insipired to be like him when im sec 1 and he is primer at that time... he is not only a model student, but a good deputy of 62nd... he is the first deputy of our coy... a well respected dy... also a well respected person... and now, im the deputy of 62nd too... i wanted to be like him too... well respected, not only in BB, but to all my friends too... but maybe there are something in me which prevent me from being like Chang Da bah...

seriously i recently very very stress about BB and fed up with alot of the year 3s BB boys... they just don't take the csm and my words seriously... talking nicely to them don't seems to work... first time im fed up in manjusri sec that time becoz when my group turn to take a break... titus and chong hui went missing... as from the start, i had told all of them if they wanted to go anywhere plz inform me... but they did not and just disappear... second time is in sch fed up of chong hui... but its just some misunderstanding... third time is during our adventure camp meeting... as the camp sergeant major titus told us the meeting time, but i saw alot ppl coming in late... and they dont seems like they are late... they just take it as if nth happens and take their own sweet time to walk in... why cant they just have a sense of urgency... they dont even have the standard discipline of being punctual... and fourth is in the meeting itself... there are some ppl just disrespecting titus... titus is trying to hold the meeting and discuss with us... but there are some jokers around... why cant they just respect the person who is talking and shut up... i wont mention who they are coz i dont use to coz trouble bewteen them and me... fifth is on the camp, again the year 3s are late! and same... no sense of urgency... and i waited at the foyer for them... when they came in... i was talking to them, and they just walk pass me... as if im invisible... am i really invisible or what... dont u guys have manners... ppl talk to u cant u all just stand there... sixth time is today bah... well again some jokers year 3s nv come collect their ponchos... there are also ppl who are lazy to come collect and need a servant to help him collect... he is just in the canteen and cant be bothered to come behind and take himself... then as for jasper... he once promised me and shaorui something which i dont see he has keep the promise... and even giving attitude to us when we ask him to come and wanted to talk to him about his poncho... at first i was being nice and asked him to sub other ppl in and come out for a while but he refuses and i flare up shouted at him... he bo chap... then after his game... shaorui ask him come... he dont give a damn and just walk off... then also got ppl say to me i have no rights to ask him come out of game as im not in my uniform or what... then he say even teachers and principal when outside become friends liao... but sorry mister... we are BB boys not teacher or colleagues... get it!

well i seriously dont know if im gonna continue the way i lead the coy or im gonna slack... if im gonna slack... i think those year 3s will take things for granted and our goal to achieve JM FRASER Gold will be gone... the habit of the year 3s is like they wont fish themselves... but they wait for shaorui and me to fish le then give them fish... why cant they just fish themselves... sorry im using fishing as an example haha... well... i guess im gonna stop all my scoldings for a period of time... no use scolding them... if i scold them... they will think im going against them or not happy with them or i pick on them... so what's the point of me scolding.... tired of it... but guys, who i insipired to be... i will try to be... so dont think im slacking in BB hor... im not... just end my scolding session for a period of time...