hmm... talking about abortion which i had been hearing this past 2 days... i remember actually i had 3 siblings de.. 1 is the eldest... the other 2 younger than me.. but sad to say lah... my mother went for abortion... can see the regrets in her eyes... actually i was almost aborted too... cannot blame my mother lah... that time she emotionally hurt... then think this think that... but is lucky that one of my mother's friend persuaded her to keep me... dont know persuade how long lah.. my mother that time already decided go for abortion le... but really thanks to her friend... maybe she is the one who saved me... qian ta yi ge ren qing LOL. well... there is actually also a younger sibling other then my elder bro... but we both dont aknowledge him as our younger bro... haha thats another of our family cases... dont wanna talk about it lah

haiz... another sad day for me bah... whenever i sad i think of what adelene had told me before "Stay more optimistic and your life will be full of laughters and happiness." but i cant see that there is anything that can let me stay optimistic... Family probs, financial probs, studies prob etc. u cant expect me to be optimistic when i had such probs right? actually i long ago had decided not to care about all this probs le... but cant lah... its happening to me and my family u know... the only day when i really can be optimistic and have a smile which is not force to or unwillingly is when all these probs are gone... perhaps this is my life bah...

haha later 4.30 have to go yishun stadium as mr cheo is conducting athletics for 7 ppl... 3 founders man and we 4 aq boys... haha cant believe athletics can jump stage till like siao... if your timing is the stage 3 timing.. u pass stage 3 le... woow amazing haha... actually i have 2 electives le... enough to qualify for next year's founders but nvm lah 1 more electives wont die mah heehee... looking forward to National Camp... the day after National Day... so will be away from school 3 days... that camp can let me get my NE badge... haha looking forward for my founders badge and our aq achieving gold next year LOL... hope can make it bah...